4th june 2012.

came up to my mums today, nice bank holiday.

2nd /3rd june 2012.

i’m getting really bad at updating this, soz (for anyone who’s actually interested!) i’ve just actually been busy for a change. went to the pub on friday night and saw james who i haven’t seen in ages which was fab. had harvester with chloerayne then went back to mine. on saturday we came up to hers and had a lil’ gathering ting with lorenzo, zoe and harvey which was a nice change. stayed at charlie’s after (for the first time ever, how weird?!) and then back to chloerayne’s again today and it’s been a day of pure monging out on the sofa with watching friends! long bank holiday weekends are the best. job hunt continues again on wednesday, sigh!

31st may / 1st june 2012.

cant remember what to update with but yeah now going to the ford with chloerayne to see james :)

30th may 2012.

today i went to an apprentice open day and spoke to a couple of people. i already had a call back for an interview this afternoon for one of the companies so thats on friday morning! bit worried about there being a “basic english and maths” test involved as my maths is so, so bad. but, hopefully it’s nothing major! came home and made myself lunch whilst settling down with ‘i love you, beth cooper’, a 3 quid buy from morrisions on the way home. not a bad little film really. my cough is still really horrendous and painful, but i wont wallow in self pity, gna go and meet my mum and godmum for a drink and some dinner.

29th may 2012.

had a sleepover with charlie last night and it was fab, not a bad birthday after all. hung out at his today for a bit after doing some shopping at walthamstow. how adorable are his kittens! got an apprenticeship open day tomorrow. no idea what its gna be like but worth investigating! 

26th / 27th / 28th may 2012.

birthday weekend has been alright! ann summers party was a laugh and my mum ordered me some really lovely underwear for my birthday. saturday went to the harvester for a meal with some family and friends which was nice then had a few drinks at the pub. nothing overly exciting and i wanted my bed most of the night! slam dunk was okay, but i spent most of it with a migraine and wanting to chunder so that wasn’t fun. but it was good to see friendly faces, and the blackout were amazing even if i did watch the majority of them on my own. was meant to be heading to portsmouth today but unfortunately i cant afford it :( gutted cause now i’m not doing much with my birthday at all, but i’m so tired from a busy weekend anyway i think it’s probably best. this heat is also lovely but a little bit unbearable! my mum paid off the rest of my reading ticket and my dad and stepdad got me perfume and vouchers etc. charlie also got me the vans i wanted :) yay! asides from that i dont feel any older and it’s just like any other day. cool.

25th may 2012.

IT’S SO HOT OUT! i’m in my house and i’m already complaining, god knows what it’ll be like when i actually leave in a bit. ha. yeah off to meet my mum at work then staying up at hers for the night :) i haven’t seen my stepdad in AGES so excited to see him ^.^ and tonight going to an anne summers party at my aunties, ha! lots of rose wine to be had though :) perfect!

24th may 2012.

this was yesterday but whatever yeah hi last night was good, nice to see everyone. this morning i went into the job centre and signed up for some apprenticeship open day next wednesday which looks pretty decent so hopefully it’ll have some kinda success for me. it is SO HOT today and not even the good kind, the really muggy ‘i dont wna do anything but sit in a bowl of ice’ kind. but it’s fine cause tomorrow i’m going to stay at my mums :)

23rd may 2012.

finally got some nice weather! it’s apparently around for a little while as well so my birthday weekend should be nice, yay! having a few cigs in the garden and hanging out with my favourite boys (yes, my cats) before i head up to islington tonight to see the TCL boys play a show, fabulous :)

22nd may 2012.

all i want is things to look up for me for a change. i’m sick of bad luck, i’m sick of being ignored, i’m sick of being rejected, i’m sick of being used, and i’m just sick of being fucking tired. so negative lately and i hate it but i literally feel out of control through worthlessness. yawn.